another update!

So, today things got a lot worse. I fainted last night in the library, was in a lot of pain all day during work and it got worse as the evening went on.

New spasms have started, which are getting worse.

I had to get an injection today of Tramadol, the pain was just unbearable and kept on fainting all day. It was quite scary, as I have a terrible fear of needles!! Not going to be fun and I'm looking at lots in the coming months! Not a great fear to have!!

I got the date for my ultrasound, so things are moving somewhere. This is to rule out everything else before they cut me up for the laparoscopy. I'm scared but I know it's all going to be worth it and I'll be in good hands.

If anyone is reading this and has similar problems, please go to your doctor! They can suggest different things and help ease the pain. Email me if you want to talk privately!!

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So it's Saturday and the pain is gone at last!

I've had a week of it, so the last day and a half have been brilliant.
I only fainted once which is good! I'm happy now!

I've an english essay to do and it's just not working out at all for me. I'm so fed up with it!

It's about what Heathcliff represents in Wuthering Heights and I just cannot figure it out at all.

I'm going to a family thirtieth birthday tonight, which is something to look forward to. I would love to have this essay done before it.

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I don't really mind if no one reads this, it's a way for me to help deal with the problems I'm facing and if I help anyone that's a bonus.

I haven't had time to post in so long, had assignments and what not to do.

So since I posted last, I have seen another specialist.

First we paid for a private gynaecologist, as we didn't know how long the wait time was. He told me what sort of situation I was in and what I needed to do. He did a small internal exam. He thinks its most likely endometriosis but the only way to prove it definitively is by laporoscopy, the thought of which terrifies me. I have a very bad phobia of needles and have been known to faint when I come in contact with them!

So they want me to have an ultrasound as well. Myself and my mam decided to wait and see what the wait list was with public health.

About two weeks later we got an appointment in the post for public! Typical, if I had have just waited it would have taken three years!! So we went along.

The doctor was lovely. She took a few tests, did a smear and an std test (No chance I could have one...just my boyfriend on the scene..one and only ;))

She didn't say it was anything in particular, which was a good and a bad thing. The first doctor ruled out PCOS (Polycystic ovaries) immediately as I would be in pain all the time, but I'm not. This second doctor didn't, and this worried me more.

She has referred me for an ultrasound, so I should be back with them in four months.

I'm currently in a lot of pain. I stopped this months pill on Thursday night and I've been getting cramps since then. I'm taking my painkillers and they aren't working. I don't know how much longer I can cope with this pain. I know it's getting sorted and soon it will be worked out, but the pain is bad now. I just want it gone!

I'll post more tomorrow, it's a good way of tracking the pain, which I need for the doctors.

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My first post!

This is my story. I've never done this before so bear with me! I've an awful lot going on in my life and always wanted to blog to help sort some stuff out, so I thought better now than ever.

I'm currently facing possible endometriosis, coming out of a bad depression, studying for college and juggling life. I'm scared, happy, sad, worried and fine all at the same time and just feel a bit fed up thinking about what I have to do and what everyone expects from me. I'm struggling with my faith, unsure of who I believe in anymore. I don't really care if no one reads this, it would be lovely if I did, but I'm doing this to help myself first and foremost.

So a bit about myself. I'm 20, in college, studying for an arts degree. I've a boyfriend of five years, living at home with my family and not working at all. My health is all over the place. I was just getting ready to come off my anti-depression tablets which I have been on for a year, and I get landed with this possible endometriosis.

I've always struggled with my periods but lately they are so much worse. I pass out from pain, can't stand and cry for a week and a half in agony. I couldn't stand it any more. I'm now waiting to find out where I am on a public waiting list. I'm petrified and happy at the same time. Petrified about what I'm about to face and happy I finally have an answer.

This blog is going to track how I feel during this process, and hopefully it might help me find a bit more of me as I go along. That's all for now, as I'm exhausted and going asleep.

Night